WILL YOU BE ADOPTED TODAY?

“Now I say, That the heir, as long as he is a child, differeth nothing from a servant, though he be Lord of all; Even so we, when we were children, were in bondage under the elements of the world: but when the fulness of the time was come, God sent forth his Son, made of a woman, made under the law, to redeem them that were under the law, that we might receive the adoption of sons. And because ye are sons, God hath sent forth the Spirit of his Son into your hearts, crying, Abba, Father. Wherefore thou art no more a servant, but a son; and if a son, then an heir of God through Christ.”

‭‭Galatians‬ ‭4‬:‭1‬, ‭3‬-‭7‬ ‭KJV‬‬

There are two kinds of adoptions. Legal adoption takes place within in the the confines of the law. There are multiple levels of assessment that must take place. The fitness of the parent must be verified. This is to ensure that the adopted child will be safe and properly cared for.

Illegal adoption is simply using money and/or connections to obtain a child. This can even happen through kidnapping. Now I’m well aware that legal adoptions can still be problematic and although they passed every assessment they can mistreat the child. I’m also aware that illegal adoption can see the child treated well.

However illegal when it is discovered will result in massive trouble for the  parent and child. And the child can be removed from the the custody of the parent. So ask yourself is it worth it? Is desperation and desire worth the risk of losing that long awaited child?

Here’s my point now there’s a better adoption. This is adoption is for all and is completely your choice. GOD sent HIS son to die for us so that we can be legal adopted in to the FAMILY OF GOD. 

“For as many as are led by the Spirit of God, they are the sons of God. For ye have not received the spirit of bondage again to fear; but ye have received the Spirit of adoption, whereby we cry, Abba, Father. The Spirit itself beareth witness with our spirit, that we are the children of God: and if children, then heirs; heirs of God, and joint-heirs with Christ; if so be that we suffer with him, that we may be also glorified together.”

‭‭Romans‬ ‭8‬:‭14‬-‭17‬ ‭KJV‬‬

This must be a your choice. GOD will never force you. In this family heirs get special privileges.

“Seeing then that we have a great high priest, that is passed into the heavens, Jesus the Son of God, let us hold fast our profession. For we have not an high priest which cannot be touched with the feeling of our infirmities; but was in all points tempted like as we are, yet without sin. Let us therefore come boldly unto the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy, and find grace to help in time of need.”

‭‭Hebrews‬ ‭4‬:‭14‬-‭16‬ ‭KJV‬‬

Now this doesn’t mean that we will never have trouble. On the contrary:

“The eyes of the LORD are upon the righteous, And his ears are open unto their cry. The face of the LORD is against them that do evil, To cut off the remembrance of them from the earth. The righteous cry, and the LORD heareth, And delivereth them out of all their troubles. The LORD is nigh unto them that are of a broken heart; And saveth such as be of a contrite spirit. Many are the afflictions of the righteous: But the LORD delivereth him out of them all.”

‭‭Psalm‬ ‭34‬:‭15‬-‭19‬ ‭KJV‬‬

So what do we have to keep in mind while going through trouble as we wait for our deliverance?

“And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.”

‭‭Romans‬ ‭8‬:‭28‬ ‭KJV‬‬

But you can not get these privileges until you have received the SPIRIT OF ADOPTION!  

So how do you receive the SPIRIT OF ADOPTION?

“But what saith it? The word is nigh thee, even in thy mouth, and in thy heart: that is, the word of faith, which we preach; that if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved. For with the heart man believeth unto righteousness; and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation. For the scripture saith, Whosoever believeth on him shall not be ashamed. For there is no difference between the Jew and the Greek: for the same Lord over all is rich unto all that call upon him. For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved.”

If you do what the Scriptures say you will receive that SPIRIT OF ADOPTION.

‭‭Romans‬ ‭10‬:‭8‬-‭13‬ ‭KJV‬‬

The YouTube link is very true. Petra/Why Should The Father Bother.

EASIER IS NOT ALWAYS BETTER

You may never read this,but for those who do please build only on the rock of our salvation. That rock is JESUS!!

“Therefore whosoever heareth these sayings of mine, and doeth them, I will liken him unto a wise man, which built his house upon a rock: And the rain descended, and the floods came, and the winds blew, and beat upon that house; and it fell not: for it was founded upon a rock. And every one that heareth these sayings of mine, and doeth them not, shall be likened unto a foolish man, which built his house upon the sand: And the rain descended, and the floods came, and the winds blew, and beat upon that house; and it fell: and great was the fall of it.”

(Matthew 7:24-27 KJV)

“But the hour cometh, and now is, when the true worshippers shall worship the Father in spirit and in truth: for the Father seeketh such to worship him. God is a Spirit: and they that worship him must worship him in spirit and in truth.”

(John 4:23-24 KJV)

I’m extremely blessed because all my life I was challenged to know why I believe what I do the wayI do. It’s never been easy even with those who I thought knew me well. For me it wasn’t about accepting everything said over the pulpit without question. People would sometimes become heated while seeking answers or clarification. I learned that standing for the truth could cost you dearly, but it’s well worth it!

Now as long as I live I want to know GOD more and more. I want to grow in love not compromise. I’ve seen both horrible extremes. Years ago when the Amy Grant scandal became public the week day morning DJ of WWZZD said that he would not play her music again because of her sin and believed lack of repentance. A few months later he gets back on the air and rebukes us for judging her and not having all the facts! You see he had some talk with her and now he was okay with her adultery. Now I’m all for love the sinner,but hate the sin. I’m not perfect and repent a lot. However,when we become unforgiving of the wrong of others we seek to take the place of GOD. That’s bad,but so is going to the other extreme.

“For when we were yet without strength, in due time Christ died for the ungodly. For scarcely for a righteous man will one die: yet peradventure for a good man some would even dare to die. But God commendeth his love toward us, in that, while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us.”

(Romans 5:6-8 KJV)

Remember Bishop Carlton Pearson? He went from it’s either holiness or hell to everybody gets in. Now some of you are thinking that this is a good thing,but please WAKE UP!! It’s a wonderful thought in the moment. We all have love ones who are good people, but have never accepted JESUS CHRIST for one reason or other. They are dear to us and we like to think that after death their goodness will be enough to save them. But accepting the free gift of salvation is not a hard process.

“But what saith it? The word is nigh thee, even in thy mouth, and in thy heart: that is, the word of faith, which we preach; That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved. For with the heart man believeth unto righteousness; and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation. For the scripture saith, Whosoever believeth on him shall not be ashamed. For there is no difference between the Jew and the Greek: for the same Lord over all is rich unto all that call upon him. For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved.”

(Romans 10:8-13 KJV)

So if Carlton is correct we never needed JESUS. Think about in terms of the noble savage. Untouched by the impurities of the straight and narrow road we’re good! But what does the WORD OF GOD say about this?

“And when the woman saw that the tree was good for food, and that it was pleasant to the eyes, and a tree to be desired to make one wise, she took of the fruit thereof, and did eat, and gave also unto her husband with her; and he did eat. And the eyes of them both were opened, and they knew that they were naked; and they sewed fig leaves together, and made themselves aprons. And they heard the voice of the Lord God walking in the garden in the cool of the day: and Adam and his wife hid themselves from the presence of the Lord God amongst the trees of the garden. And the Lord God called unto Adam, and said unto him, Where art thou? And he said, I heard thy voice in the garden, and I was afraid, because I was naked; and I hid myself. And he said, Who told thee that thou wast naked? Hast thou eaten of the tree, whereof I commanded thee that thou shouldest not eat? And the man said, The woman whom thou gavest to be with me, she gave me of the tree, and I did eat. And the Lord God said unto the woman, What is this that thou hast done? And the woman said, The serpent beguiled me, and I did eat. And the Lord God said unto the serpent, Because thou hast done this, thou art cursed above all cattle, and above every beast of the field; upon thy belly shalt thou go, and dust shalt thou eat all the days of thy life: And I will put enmity between thee and the woman, and between thy seed and her seed; it shall bruise thy head, and thou shalt bruise his heel. Unto the woman he said, I will greatly multiply thy sorrow and thy conception; in sorrow thou shalt bring forth children; and thy desire shall be to thy husband, and he shall rule over thee. And unto Adam he said, Because thou hast hearkened unto the voice of thy wife, and hast eaten of the tree, of which I commanded thee, saying, Thou shalt not eat of it: cursed is the ground for thy sake; in sorrow shalt thou eat of it all the days of thy life; Thorns also and thistles shall it bring forth to thee; and thou shalt eat the herb of the field; In the sweat of thy face shalt thou eat bread, till thou return unto the ground; for out of it wast thou taken: for dust thou art, and unto dust shalt thou return. And Adam called his wife’s name Eve; because she was the mother of all living. Unto Adam also and to his wife did the Lord God make coats of skins, and clothed them. And the Lord God said, Behold, the man is become as one of us, to know good and evil: and now, lest he put forth his hand, and take also of the tree of life, and eat, and live for ever: Therefore the Lord God sent him forth from the garden of Eden, to till the ground from whence he was taken. So he drove out the man; and he placed at the east of the garden of Eden Cherubims, and a flaming sword which turned every way, to keep the way of the tree of life.”

(Genesis 3:6-24 KJV)

Now before you say it’s too long to read just consider what it shows us how much we need to be redeemed. Several times in these scriptures we see excuses made to escape or lessen blame. Now if there was nothing wrong with what was done why pass the buck? That one act of disobedience has affected all of mankind. And we know this but it doesn’t feel great all the time. It’s easier to give permission for sin rather than correct it! Sometimes we see the church as a place where no false doctrine could ever enter,but that’s not what it says in scripture!

“Beloved, when I gave all diligence to write unto you of the common salvation, it was needful for me to write unto you, and exhort you that ye should earnestly contend for the faith which was once delivered unto the saints. For there are certain men crept in unawares, who were before of old ordained to this condemnation, ungodly men, turning the grace of our God into lasciviousness, and denying the only Lord God, and our Lord Jesus Christ. I will therefore put you in remembrance, though ye once knew this, how that the Lord, having saved the people out of the land of Egypt, afterward destroyed them that believed not.”

(Jude 1:3-5 KJV)

Even back then there were those who used false doctrine mixed with a bit of truth to turn people away from GOD. These people didn’t kick down door and put their foot on the neck of the congregation. On the contrary they came in quietly and little by little gained trust and influence making sure that they appeared to be helpful all while being completely self serving. Now I know that those money hungry televangelists spring to mind rather quickly quickly but they’re not the only ones.

Today I was listening to some old contemporary Christian music. When these songs came out some people called it evil and claimed that these songs didn’t glorify GOD at all. The truth was they were new and different and therefore worldly. Today we have worldly music lyrics and everything thing else in the church. Christian artists now see it as a good thing to collaborate with secular artists. They say that it’s helping them reach the lost. Or they say that they are going to minister to a particular secular artist. However, these well meaning people end up losing their own sight becoming spiritually blind.

“Be not deceived: evil communications corrupt good manners.”

(1 Corinthians 15:33 KJV)

Yet there’s another type of Christian artists. When I say Christian artists you can also include those in any aspect the entertainment industry. As their fame and influence grow they take on more secular or worldly roles or projects while claiming that nothing has changed except the size of their paychecks and their audience.

They believe that material prosperity is and accurate measurement of how well you’re serving GOD. People love to hear a good success story. This idea that stuff will increase happiness means that hoarders should be the happiness people on earth. They hold on to everything and seek to gain even more. Now most would find that hoarding is wrong,but acquiring useful positions will make us feel better. And before you say that I believe that we should all live in poverty consider this.

“For the love of money is the root of all evil: which while some coveted after, they have erred from the faith, and pierced themselves through with many sorrows. But thou, O man of God, flee these things; and follow after righteousness, godliness, faith, love, patience, meekness.”

(1 Timothy 6:10-11 KJV)

“No man can serve two masters: for either he will hate the one, and love the other; or else he will hold to the one, and despise the other. Ye cannot serve God and mammon.”

(Matthew 6:24 KJV)

So you see my problem. We no longer seek after the things of GOD because it’s unpopular and seen as exclusionary. Going along to get along is easier and leads to a more comfortable life here on earth. Still I hope that you’ll change your mind and seek the kingdom of GOD.

“Fight the good fight of faith, lay hold on eternal life, whereunto thou art also called, and hast professed a good profession before many witnesses. I give thee charge in the sight of God, who quickeneth all things, and before Christ Jesus, who before Pontius Pilate witnessed a good confession; That thou keep this commandment without spot, unrebukeable, until the appearing of our Lord Jesus Christ:”

(1 Timothy 6:12-14 KJV)

Petra Strong Convictions

IN DEFENSE OF VASHTI 

It is my desire that you read this with an open mind and heart. There will be things that you may not agree with. I ask that you search the WORD OF GOD so that even these things that are not agreeable to you will lead you to a deeper love and understanding of the GOD we serve.
“Beloved, believe not every spirit, but try the spirits whether they are of God: because many false prophets are gone out into the world.”

‭‭(1 John‬ ‭4:1‬ ‭KJV)‬‬
WHO WAS VASHTI?

Vashti was once queen of Persia. Her husband was king Ahasuerus. He was very powerful. His kingdom had an hundred and twenty seven provinces.
“Now it came to pass in the days of Ahasuerus, (this is Ahasuerus which reigned, from India even unto Ethiopia, over an hundred and seven and twenty provinces:) That in those days, when the king Ahasuerus sat on the throne of his kingdom, which was in Shushan the palace,”

‭‭(Esther‬ ‭1:1-2‬ ‭KJV‬‬)
WHAT WAS HER TRANSGRESSION?
Well the simple answer is that she disobeyed the king’s command to appear before him. Read the scriptures below for more details.
“Also Vashti the queen made a feast for the women in the royal house which belonged to king Ahasuerus. On the seventh day, when the heart of the king was merry with wine, he commanded Mehuman, Biztha, Harbona, Bigtha, and Abagtha, Zethar, and Carcas, the seven chamberlains that served in the presence of Ahasuerus the king, To bring Vashti the queen before the king with the crown royal, to shew the people and the princes her beauty: for she was fair to look on. But the queen Vashti refused to come at the king’s commandment by his chamberlains: therefore was the king very wroth, and his anger burned in him. Then the king said to the wise men, which knew the times, (for so was the king’s manner toward all that knew law and judgment: And the next unto him was Carshena, Shethar, Admatha, Tarshish, Meres, Marsena, and Memucan, the seven princes of Persia and Media, which saw the king’s face, and which sat the first in the kingdom;) What shall we do unto the queen Vashti according to law, because she hath not performed the commandment of the king Ahasuerus by the chamberlains? And Memucan answered before the king and the princes, Vashti the queen hath not done wrong to the king only, but also to all the princes, and to all the people that are in all the provinces of the king Ahasuerus. For this deed of the queen shall come abroad unto all women, so that they shall despise their husbands in their eyes, when it shall be reported, The king Ahasuerus commanded Vashti the queen to be brought in before him, but she came not. Likewise shall the ladies of Persia and Media say this day unto all the king’s princes, which have heard of the deed of the queen. Thus shall there arise too much contempt and wrath. If it please the king, let there go a royal commandment from him, and let it be written among the laws of the Persians and the Medes, that it be not altered, That Vashti come no more before king Ahasuerus; and let the king give her royal estate unto another that is better than she. And when the king’s decree which he shall make shall be published throughout all his empire, (for it is great,) all the wives shall give to their husbands honour, both to great and small.”

‭‭(Esther‬ ‭1: 9-20‬ ‭KJV‬‬)
Now some of you are probably thinking that her punishment was harsh considering that all she did was refuse to come when called. After all she wasn’t a servant . There’s a few problems with thinking that.

1. She was still a subject of the king even though she was the queen.**

2. The king was not sober at the time and one might think that his counselors were in the same condition.**
“In the third year of his reign, he made a feast unto all his princes and his servants; the power of Persia and Media, the nobles and princes of the provinces, being before him: When he shewed the riches of his glorious kingdom and the honour of his excellent majesty many days, even an hundred and fourscore days. And when these days were expired, the king made a feast unto all the people that were present in Shushan the palace, both unto great and small, seven days, in the court of the garden of the king’s palace; Where were white, green, and blue, hangings, fastened with cords of fine linen and purple to silver rings and pillars of marble: the beds were of gold and silver, upon a pavement of red, and blue, and white, and black, marble. And they gave them drink in vessels of gold, (the vessels being diverse one from another,) and royal wine in abundance, according to the state of the king. And the drinking was according to the law; none did compel: for so the king had appointed to all the officers of his house, that they should do according to every man’s pleasure.”

‭‭(Esther‬ ‭1:3-8‬ ‭KJV‬‬)
3. Him commanding her to appear was so that he could show her off like a trophy. She was nothing but another possession to him.
SO WHAT IS YOUR DEFENSE?

“Husbands, love your wives, and be not bitter against them.”

‭‭(Colossians‬ ‭3:19‬ ‭KJV‬‬)
I had a professor in college who clarified the conditions that make submitting to your husband possible without causing resentment and bitterness. Basically a wife can freely submit when she is loved. This more than saying those three little words that easily roll off the tongue but didn’t come from the heart. A husband must provide for his wife to the best of his ability. Not just financially , but emotionally as well. Vashti did not lack any material thing. Perhaps she saw herself as equal to king Ahasuerus.

Now let me be perfectly clear. Scripture is very clear in how a wife should treat her husband.
Therefore as the church is subject unto Christ, so let the wives be to their own husbands in every thing.”

‭‭(Ephesians‬ ‭5:24‬ ‭KJV‬‬)
Was Vashti wrong? Yes,but the king was also in error. Because he seemed to be lacking in the love department. He and his counselors were more concerned with how her act of defiance looked than understanding why and seeing that an abundance of proud on both sides made this possible.

BUT IT’S NOT MY BIRTHDAY 

A long time ago in a peaceful village there lived a wonderful man. Although he never married it was said that he looked after the widows and the fatherless. But I must speak the whole truth. Not one having a need of any kind was ever turned away. The sick of body,mind,and soul all found healing in his presence. He wasn’t a fan of the village elders, but he knew that people had a right to accept or reject him and any one else outcast or insider. Over time the village came to appreciate the miracle working man in their midst. One day they decided to honor him. The picked a day and called it his birthday. The decorated and sang and gave gifts to him and to each other. However, something was very wrong. The day that they picked was not his birthday and the customs that they engaged in were pagan and totally against everything that he represented. When he confronted them they tried to explain. The mayor spoke up and said,” You see we don’t really know the exact date because you never told us. So we picked this day because it coincides with a day that we’ve celebrated for generations. Now see how much we love you. We made all of this for and about you.”The man was sad. He asked them why they made him an after thought. Surely his friends and the people he had helped would see that the best way to honor him would be to live the way that he showed them. He never asked for this. A day polluted with paganism and idolatry called his birthday. He tried his best to tell them that this was wrong,but no one would listen. They were overjoyed. They could keep their old ways and in their minds honor such a great man. As the years passed people forgot that the day was chosen for other reasons. They believed that the day was correct. Even those who knew better went along with tradition. To this day the man is still sad that people use him as an excuse to continue to walk in darkness as they claim to follow the light.
Here’s my point, when you love someone you don’t randomly celebrate their birthday on any day you choose. You also don’t participate in customs that are the direct opposite of everything that they stand for. 

EVENING

I wrote this song for my fiancé. It’s about how I picture our life together. Spending the nights in love and fully blessed. I know that some of you have already heard this buy I wanted to include the lyrics. Enjoy!

Here’s the link to hear the song.
http://www.lyricord.com/audio/?objectID=Cm7v2sEtgp

EVENING
The sun has set and work is done
It’s the evening
To my home is where I run
It’s the evening
Supper’s ready table’s set
I thank God my needs are met
Peace love and joy abound when the sun goes down
Children play without a care
It’s the evening
Prayers from my heart with the Lord I’ll share
In the evening
Blessings come my way at the end of everyday
My strength is renewed
It’s like I’m brand new
Sweetly in moonlight your kisses give
In the evening
Oh what joy my time with you is
In the evening
And though may walk for a thousand miles
In the evening
I’ll greet you my love with the warmest smile
In the evening
In our room and close to you
What else would we rather do
Lights down low arms wrapped up tight it’s a loving night
And the time is right for a sweet sweet night
3XLa la la la la la la la In the evening
Cuddled with you is what I love to do
In the evening

LOVE CAN HAPPEN

I am truly blessed in a world full of everything but what you really need I found my heart ,soul, and reason for not going postal. Exactly eleven years ago I met my best friend. I had just been dumped by yet another asshole. I was on a 3D chat room we called Rose. Move.com was I new experience for me. I met people from all over and quickly discovered that the name of the game for some was hurt because you have been hurt. The calm inviting waters of my new environment turned in to rushing white waters. It was tough to make real connections at first. In time I built a family of people who wanted to support each other. Still I felt alone. So one day a few kind words led to a movie night and with in three days we were chatting everyday for hours on the phone. Getting to know the person behind the aviator can be a very scary process because honest disclosure is a requirement for me as well. I had been hurt so many that my walls were indestructible or so I thought. Now you may be this is probably another catfish story. GUESS WHAT IT’S NOT! For years all we had was phone calls, video chat, and virtual reality. Even when we made the move to go to Second Life it was one step closer to real life. Then I got pneumonia and ended up in ICU where I almost died. At that time Terry decided to come see me. Our life together would now be full time real life. This may sound odd, but I convinced him to wait three months to come, because I didn’t want the first time he saw to be me hooked up to oxygen. He knew all about my disability but I wanted the moment we met to be unmarred by pity. Through many other ups and downs we made it. Learning to see yourself as something other than your past failures or past days of glory takes love. A mirror of love is in you reflecting all the positive traits and or attributes that you possess. As you love yourself you improve, but you long to be seen as you now see you. I had given hope when it came to that til met Terry. Now I what it’s like to accept someone for who they are and what it’s like to be accepted for who I am. Faults and all. Now we have started the process of becoming one flesh while fleeing fornication. I HAVE CHOSEN TO RECEIVE AND ACCEPT MY BLESSING AND BURY MY PAST

SHUT THE HELL UP BECAUSE I’M TIRED OF YOUR MOUTH

Ok I know that I’ve been away for awhile but things happen in life that you don’t want and can’t possibly prepare for. My grandpa recently die of cancer. He fought hard like he did with everything. He actually lived a lot longer than the doctors thought possible. This experience has opened my eyes to something that I’ve been trying to deny for years. Growing up I had one source of wisdom wrapped up in unconditional love. We didn’t always agree but I never questioned his love. The hard truth of the matter is not every around in my very own family shared his views. I really had to look at that. I once had a college professor tell the class that I easily admitted my faults. I’m so used to saying sorry that I would apologize for giving a complement. Then I noticed something very odd. And I mean odd. There were people who would do wrong and speak wrong not just to me but to others and never utter a word of remorse. And guess what no one says a word. Others justify this behavior with well it could be worse or at least they didn’t. You see because so little is expected of them as long as they don’t fuck up too bad everyone is happy. They can take wooden nickels. Buy oceanfront property is Arizona. Even buy a hamburger today with only the promise of being paid on Tuesday. So it seems that ignorance is not only bliss,but it gets handsomely rewarded. I am in no way claiming perfection. No one does everything right all the time. I’m really only asking for one thing. Get off my back about my life choices. I now believe that it is possible to be replaced even in the most scared of relationships. Let me you give some examples :

1. Your best friend of almost thirty years only contacts you when their life is shitty or to gloat. You call to see about them and make sure you are always there for them,but your turn never seems to come.

2. None of your childhood friends want to hang out with you unless you organize and pay for it # Rent -A Friend
There are no invites to lunch, the movies, or coffee. However, you are still obligated to care and remember birthdays anniversaries and other friend code events. No calls to chat with you unless they think that you’re in crisis. Then pity drives them to do what should be the norm.

3. People in shattered glass houses point there fingers at you and condemn every word,action, and thought that you ever have or will have. They are beyond opinionated. They aren’t trying to keep you from making the same mistakes. They just want to judge you.
So does the GOLDEN RULE MAKE YOU A DOORMAT? The answer is NO! How people treat you isn’t always your fault and bitterness helps no one. You can start again and hit the mute button!!!!

LIES I’VE TOLD MYSELF

Life is full of challenges. And I firmly believe that people with character have been through their own personal hell. If your lucky most of it is you can repress til you have time to deal with it. We tell ourselves what I call coping lies.

    HERE’S A FEW
    1. What am I so upset about ? There are people a lot worse of than me. News flash there will always be people worse and better than you. It’s sick to try to cheer yourself up with the misery of others so STOP IT !
    2. They didn’t mean it that way. Check their track record before making excuses for them.
    3. Everyone has bad days mine is just lasting a year or two.
    4. If they’re yelling at me at least they’re talking to me.
    5. They really do care about me. They’re not just being nice because they want money or some other form of support. Here’s a good test see if they come around when you have nothing. Where are they when your in need.
    6. I don’t have to feel this way so I don’t feel this way. When you don’t deal with it you will eventually implode.
    7. I can’t do that because it will hurt them. Wake up! They hurt you without a second thought. And if your not being malicious let your happiness hurt them.
    8. They’re only words the don’t really bother me. BULLSHIT!!! Harsh words especially repeated over and over can cause mortal wounds to the soul.
    9.I’m just paying for my mistakes. That may be true but it does not mean you won’t ever be free of this shit.
    I’m willing to bet that you have one person that truly loves you. And I mean unconditionally. Let them help you undo the web of lies that has trapped you. Not everything in life feels good. Sometimes you feel like your dying when your familiar hell starts to get a little heavenly.
    My love has always told me “, This too shall pass.” However nothing began to change until I took the baby steps required to leave my emotional and mental prison behind.
    IF YOUR STRONG ENOUGH TO ENDURE IT YOUR STRONG ENOUGH TO OVERCOME IT

I SHATTERED THE MIRROR

I often have to stop myself from comparing myself to others. Most people would think that beauty was my main concern, but it goes beyond that. People like them better and hangout with them more. Good things happen to them often, easily and fast. Even little things are a struggle for me . Add to that the judging that occurs when you go against the grain. Because at some point in your life you are given a mirror that reflects everything everyone else sees in you and expects from you. Not all of it bad but none of it you’ve had a say in. So you try to make yourself fit the image that you see staring back at you. This only makes your life suck. So you try to find things that make you happy. All the while the mirror mocks you and taunts with how perfect everyone else is. Do you yield or do you choose to only see yourself the way that GOD sees you.
I’VE CHOSEN TO SHATTER THE MIRROR AND TAKE BACK MY LIFE! WHAT WILL YOU DO?